The FinDom I Chose: Chapter 3
How to Use Me Better
His next message was "Cover my morning coffee, faggot."
I didn't need to think about it. I'd just shared with him my readiness to submit and he had acknowledged that he was well aware of it, and expecting it. He had planned my submission. I didn't resent his request to send at all. It was an invitation to submit to him, and it seemed so natural to me, so obvious, and so welcome.
I was really enjoying serving him and mindfucking myself into deeper service for him. It felt great to send again and write to him "sent Sir." With the app fees, it was actually a little over $10, far more than a coffee, but he deserves it, right?
That was how I felt. This cocky young Master just admitted that he was planning to make me submit to his foot fetish. Somehow he's so good that I submitted to it in just a few hours, without him lifting a finger. I was starting to feel his power over me, and it just felt great. I needed him to fuck my holes. Any hole. My mouth, my ass, or my mind. And yeah, I know he was focused on the last of those. My mind is his cashhole.
The truth is that my focus was somewhere else. I was at the bakery again, earlier than the other day. There were no customers at the bakery, only the muscular attendant. Have I mentioned how handsome he was? He had dark hair like Master control_twink, and he looked around the same age, about thirty. Or maybe his confidence gave him more maturity. I ordered a cappuccino and an Austrian kipferl, a crescent-shaped pastry filled with poppyseed. I'm in Vienna, in case I haven't mentioned it.
I took a seat and the attendant soon came over with my order. "Watch out so you don't drop the cup again, faggot," he said. I looked around to make sure no one was within earshot. Why was I even worried? He was the one who should be worried about losing his job. But he didn't seem to give a fuck. He was so confident. Just like the FinDom fucking my mind from over a thousand miles away.
"Ah, yes Sir," I replied, ogling his muscular thighs and round ass filling out his trousers while he walked away.
Somehow I got back to thinking about Master control_twink's hold over me. Or maybe it was all connected, since I wanted to feel the attendant's physical hold too. I was still eager to know more about how Master control_twink intended to use me and what his style was. I know Doms often don't like to be bothered to talk about these things, because they might think the sub is too focused on his own desires. But that's only partly true. Because doesn't it matter that the biggest reason for those desires is to serve and please the Dom? That means we subs need to know how we could achieve that, and we'll only know if the Doms tell us.
One reason for a Dom to hold back information is indifference, because he is likely more interested in fulfilling his own desires than worrying about those of his subs. But observant Doms such as Master control_twink are very mindful of their subs' desires, because those desires reveal the buttons they need to push in order to make them submit and ultimately leak more money.
A better reason to withhold information is to keep the sub in suspense. The information Doms share becomes like a lead (or leash, as the Americans call it). The more they share, the more slack the sub has. That gives him more freedom to serve the Master in various ways that he learns are pleasing. But less information, or a short lead, can let a Master choose exactly how he wants the sub to serve at any given moment, based on the Master's desires and whims. For the sub, depending on how he's built, a short lead can sometimes be exciting. However, too much restriction can be tough to handle for too long, and the sub might lose interest.
I'm nowhere near that point with Master control_twink, as I continue to send quite readily to him. But it's a fine line. So I appreciate every breadcrumb he throws me about the ways in which he might use me, or the fantasies he'd want to cultivate. I just know I could just as easily snap if I'm not sure where things might go. Don't get me wrong, the Master must be in the lead, but at least for me, I feel better when I know what's on the horizon and in which direction the Master is leading me.
Moving on from these metaphor-loaded reflections, it's time to get more concrete about some ideas I have for increasing my submission and dependence on Master control_twink. I don't know yet what he might think about them, but I guess we will all know after he reads this chapter.
Consider this a proposal of ideas for how Master control_twink could control me better...some areas, if I may be so presumptuous to suggest them, where his intervention might help me make more money for him. He is a FinDom after all.
I know this could be read as trying to manage up my own submission, or topping from the bottom, but I hope Master control_twink takes this the right way, as an offer for him to use me in a more total way, allowing him to have much more impact on my life than the average Dom. I'm looking for ways to offer him more control, and isn't it awesome that control is a part of his name?
So I have this fantasy about being managed by a Master — involving more than just chores. I previously shared in my musings podcast episodes that being encouraged by a Dom to do better in my personal life turned me on. It was a great source of motivation, even if I ultimately needed to find my internal drive. If you’re wondering what’s in it for the Master, beyond the added control, it’s simply that a better sub is more useful to him.
Take my fitness goals for example. A hotter sub reflects well on my Owner. So he has always told me he wanted me to get a flat stomach. I just didn’t think I could do better than getting my biceps pumped and maintaining a decent weight. But it stuck in my mind, and with some research and a bit of work, I created an app to track my performance. So I now had a solution I thought might actually work. My Owner was the catalyst, but I’ve been getting fitter and fitter on my own, assisted by the app I developed. Every now and then I send my Owner new photos and progress reports about my shrinking waistline.
Speaking of waistlines, the very toned attendant came back to check on me. I'd finished my coffee, but I had left a bite of the pastry. I looked up as he picked it up from my plate and took it, grinning from ear to ear. "I love how you look with your mouth open," he said, making me conscious that I was salivating, and I immediately closed my mouth. He cleared my table and I took my cue to head back to my hotel.
Returning to my reflections about Doms pushing their subs, the main reason for a FinDom to do that is obviously to make the sub send more money. So I wouldn't think of proposing anything that wouldn't serve that goal. A FinDom who is thinking long-term might see that too and decide it's worth pushing me…at least once he's convinced I'm reliable enough as a finsub and am worth his time. Or maybe in the short-term, pushing and controlling me may serve to deepen my mindfuck and submission to him, to send him more money in the present.
Here are my ideas, offered with the utmost respect to Master control_twink for his consideration. I feel compelled to disclose to Masters all information that could help them use me better. It’s kind of like handing them a remote control to operate me, or even pointing out what pushing each button does to me. I hope he also reads this as following his previous order: "I'd encourage you to write about any and all fantasies as they relate to me." Actually, he didn't present it as an order, but escalating every suggestion from a Dom is what makes it all so fun. Oh, how good it feels to follow orders.
Master control_twink could — at his sole discretion and for his pleasure — help advance any of these objectives, whether through encouragement, requiring progress reports, or providing helpful advice from his own experience.
- Find a new job: This is how most people make money. I've been freelancing for a long time and a new role in the field I'm targeting would give me a higher income. This requires networking, engaging on social media to get noticed, and applying for jobs.
- Reorganize my content for better monetization. I've started a big project for that with a lot of moving parts and potential new features, such as tweeting clips from my podcast, going on other social media channels, moving my blog and podcast to be self-hosted. I could make it easier to reach new audiences, help them find my content, and let them purchase premium products (including the book in which this chapter will be featured).
- Become a porn star. I really can't imagine actually becoming a star, even though I am becoming hotter and hotter. Mind you also that I really am a very normal career-oriented guy. But I have dipped my toes in this pool, and a persuasive Master could encourage me to do much more, which might help me increase my reach much further, and ultimately convert into more purchases, subscriptions, and tips. In fact, I just applied to become a creator on JustForFans, having had that idea planted in the back of my mind by the Dangerous FinDom months ago. I almost forgot, but Master control_twink could also help advance this objective by encouraging my fitness journey, since being more attractive will help me score more as a porn star. I know fitness is a goal — or a button — my Owner controls, but I am a slut and I can serve more than one Master at the same time, without compromising my loyalty.
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- Drain subs. Who better to give a FinSwitch like me advice than a successful FinDom? Making me a better FinDom won't make me any less submissive toward him. And he wouldn't be helping the competition, but his own finsub, his fag, for the purpose of making him more money. Besides, as I said in my recent post "Neediness: Hot or Not?", every sub is turned off by different Doms. Our triggers are different. And since Master control_twink and I are very different, we may attract different finsubs. Those sending to me may be turned on by the idea of submitting lower, under another sub. They may get excited by the idea that what they drain to me could keep leaking upward, from me to a more powerful Alpha above all of us subs. And then there's another obvious reason to send to me. We look very different. He's taller, slimmer, younger, and considerably more hung. But some may be more into the young pumped Daddy that I am, growing more muscles every day. If you're one of those subs, just $end.
House Slave Fag
Master control_twink's potential interest in any of these ideas might come from the narrow perspective of what earns him the most for the least effort. He can probably influence my progress on any of them, because all he has to do is push me. I'll do the hard work. Oh, how exciting it would be to be on his leash!